Want it to know the weirdest thing though?
In regards to my engagement, I have ZERO anxiety. My closest friends noticed it too. One mentioned, "I've seen you freak out about a weekend trip to Wisconsin, but a lifetime with your boyfriend and you're totally cool!" It's true though. But I think I've figured out why:
This has been in the works for our entire relationship. We have been working towards forever since we started dating. It's been part of our plan. He's my best friend. I'm his. He is my "home" no matter where he is. Why would any of that make me anxious?
In in regards to wedding planning however, the anxiety will be flowing. I've already panicked about leaving my ring at the jewler to be fixed (ITS LIKE SENDING YOUR FIRST BORN TO COLLEGE!) and asking my bridesmaids (haven't even started that process yet). However, it's a comforting feeling knowing that no matter how many wedding bumps we have, I'm still working towards forever with my best friend and THAT is the most calming idea in the world.
Here's to you my fiancé and human Xanax. Thank you for picking me. Can't wait to start my forever with you.